Sunday, November 30, 2003
Sleepless nights and a maiden's work
i think i have all the qualities of a full-time maid.
i could cook, clean and wash.
'cept i entertain the guests too.
its been 3 days straight that people have been visiting my house.
and all these 3 days, i've been cooking, cleaning and washing.
yes. i did. i really did.
its hard to believe as my reputation of being one lazy shit was undeniable.
so, what happened just now was not anything surprising lately.
i made my "famous" jemput-jemput.. haha.
yeah- they loved it.
my auntie even commented that i have passed the "test".
soon, guys will be coming to propose.
oh please. *flattered
muahahahahaha...
im getting tired of waiting for my friends to have the jalan raya.
if they cant get any free time to be with us.. then diss it.
dont come. dont bother. say NO. it aint hard.
and im not gonna even bother asking the rest.
bullshit. if ya wanna come, ya coming then.
if ya cant, too bad.
enough.
am i sounding pissed?
or maybe i am.
posted @ 6:21 PM
Saturday, November 29, 2003
MY flaws
i've just started thinking bout my flaws.
i started to give it a thought while waiting for myself to go
to sleep. which alot of people know is an insanely
impossible thing for me.
i keep waking up in the middle of the night even after i slept.
my flaws..
i knew what my flaws were..
i tend to let people step on me.
take me for granted.. even naz noticed it too and told me.
yeah.. why.. o why..
i do not usually realised it until a point in time when i felt
really stupid.
there is a fine line between helping and being stupidly stepped on
by other people..
i was so into other's interest that i always ignored my priorities.
now, thats the kind of thing i always could not control.
even friends sometimes take me for granted.
its me.. im just stupid.
i also tend do suck up to people at times and soon suddenly
realised i've being bitched.
now whats with that.. im using the term "suck up"
because people tend to think of me that way..
people been using that "suck uP" word for me..
but i aint no "stuck uP"..
and i aint no hypocrite, tho' i noe who is.
and i know there's still other flaws ive not
looked into..
WELL, at leaSt i do think about it.
basically.. the problem lies in my personality of being TOO nice
to people and not getting anything in return.
though sometimes i do benefit.. but mostly in times i dont.
i usually tend to go the extra mile doing something for people..
and i dont actually show it. so, it seems like im handling my life easily.
but is it? only god knows me..
im a sincere person.. honestly.. too sincere at times..
there's always a "too" in everything i do.
damn. what is UP with ME.
gile.............................................
im not gonna start my emotionally-distraught self.
its not worth it.
i've just got to change myself.
DO NOT LET OTHERS STEP ON YOU!
yes.. that'll be my 2004 resolutions.
im gonna keep to my goal.
well, i always do.. yes. i will.
i'll be a much stronger person.
i know i can
posted @ 6:30 AM
Friday, November 28, 2003
i'll just go and flush myself down
the toilet bowl
its a cliche.
and it all started when people started hovering my house
continuously without even a catch of toilet break for me.
after a family left, another come..
and there was a point in time when 3 families were together.
3 big families.. whoaa...
i was like pouring water non-stop, filling them up non-stop.
not even a catch of "phew.."
just imagine thaat. yes. but then... hari raya rite.
so, im not gonna complain much.
its suppose to be that way.
i've not touch the computer since i woke up in the morning.
and i was woken up in the morning by my mother's hasty
vacuuming of the house. kecoh sak.
she made the whole household stress.
like as if the president was coming to our house.
wtf. nevermind. im gonna excuse the old gal.
so.. this is my so called break time.
there's still people outside.
my cousins all.
i just need a break to be with my darling computer..
tomorrow.. people are still coming..
yes. but its ok. wahaha..
i can get money w/o actualli moving from house to house.
i hate that. so, yeah... cool.
okay.. back to the guests.
im suppose to be entertaining them
aite..
posted @ 9:41 PM
Thursday, November 27, 2003
Its My Life. Dont you forget.
Its My Life. It never ends.
wuish! wake up!
its me again. the gal who loves to complain.
yeah- excited huh?
so whats new today..
today's the 3rd day of raya..
so far.. the first three days had been a rollercoaster house ride.
from one house to another..
and the new thing this year is me riding in my sista's peugeot..
coooool.. so fly.
she drives like she on some racing game.
chill sis.. she loves it.
hey, im not complaining...;)
blardy blar....
then.. yeah. im not even gonna start on the famous topic these days..
which is.." collection how much?"
im not gonna bullshit much bout that.. just the fact that
this year i aint getting as much as the years before... and before..
economic crisis. ahh.. darn.
3 days straight ... from house to house..
all in the west side.
yeah- my paternal side all belongs to the west.
sucky rightee.. im sooo farrr... damn.
ok- nevermind..nevermind..
i could be looking forward to jalan raya with friends..
i hope it'll turn out well.
it'd better be!
waharhar.. ok.
the next couple of days.. i think im free..
so if anyone wanna come visit at my place.. just give me a call.
chey...waharhar.
wow. i got through the post without much complains.
aite.. slamat hari raya..
posted @ 3:39 PM
Tuesday, November 25, 2003
" a hundred days have made me older,
since the last time that i saw your pretty face.."
waaahhhh.... 25th November seyy..
harrri rayyyyaa...
Slamat raya peeps. maaf zahir batin.
lots of dissing sumtimes kan.. so sorri laa..
okie.. aiyahh... on a pagi raya i feel mellow..
i actually had a dream bout shahrul.. wahaha..
waahhh.. miss him so much.
aite- whatever.
i'm always like this. on-off sia feeling..
he oso cannot be bothered.
so just.... let hana leave by herself..
she nt ready for commitment... yet.
actually she has... just gave up. damn.
ahhhh.. whatever.. dowan tok bout tt pagi2 raya.
very dumb.
well!.. last nite drop by at geylang.
i hate that place.
but thennn.. need baju siaa...
rupanya.. my baju big siaa..
pakai last time's measurement..
then skali.. i lost weight la i think..
pakai like veryyy big.. like.. like.. reeli rabak.
lengan die all the way down..
just imagine me wearing something like my father's baju..
besar kan.. wahahaha..
Geylang fcking pack siol.
like dammmmnnnnnn pack.
i have to move inch by inch.
cannot stand the sights.. every minute i'll go like..
"tsk,tsk,tsk.. go home laaaaa u people!!!!!!!!!!!!"
help mothe do the curtain ke.. kuih ke..
instead.. lepak here and there..
with ABSOLUTELY nothing to do.. but tangkap jambu jeee..
all the mats and the minahs.. wuuuish!!
the pakaian like fuck. isap rokok..!!
smell of fag everywhere siaaa..!!
u noe how i hate that smell.......!
pollution siaa.. i kept coughing and coughing time walking
in the pack'd place.
give up sia!
my last visit to geylang!
dont EVEN bother asking me to go there.
it aint happening! No.. nada..
im soooo... DONE.
k, muddddaa... i've learnt my lessson...
ALWAYS try on the baju raya after making it.
ALWAYS try ! not until the last minute then complain!..
k- .. slamat hari raya..
posted @ 7:23 AM
Sunday, November 23, 2003
Shopping Spree
bite me.
whats been up with me today?
what did i do today?
what happened?
as the tittle says.. yea went to do some shopping.
ok, i admit it- maybe just window shopping..
just checking out the stuffs i wanna get later after raya..
hahar.. ok i was bored.. so why not head to town rite-
so, i checked out school stuffs laa..
check'd out the Gallaz shoe. $85.
whoa.. yep. ima haf to fork out that much.
but i noe.. its gonna last a lifetime. so why not.
bt i think the price is okay comparing to roxy shoe.
the price like some kind of those tai-tai's license car number.
like WHOAAA... just on shoes!
NO way!
ok bla bla bla..
my "shopping" was successful..
ok- wanna noe something u never knew bout me..
i actually have this notebook to calculate my expenses and
stuffs im getting. ive had this book since sec one..
so, just now.. i actualli wrote down stuffs i shud get.
wahahaha..
i actualli do some "research" before heading for the shops..
i check out magazines la.. then if i spot anything nice,
i'll write down the name and place of shop..
then after that, step two is..
set out the prioritize stuffs first..
then calculate the amount..
then make sure i stay in my budget..
which is kinda hard for me. damn.
then..... i make up like some kind of itenary for the day..
hahar!! like wat malls to go first then wat shops i MUST go..
wakakakaka... shopperholic sia hana.
but i admit. i am.
dont go shopping with me if u don wanna get sore feet or even blisters.
my friends should knoe.
i just have to look at almost every single shops tt i like..
muahahahaha!!
shopping is fun la..
thats one way i excercise.. tiring noee..
must choose.. compare price.. fitting..
wahahaha..
its a tough job, but somebody's gotta do it.
girls mahhhh...
but some girls hate shopping. isk..
even when i no money, its always fun to look around.
but im not really rich or u noe.. those big spenders..
i use my money well.. i save!
yaaaa.. i actualli save.
ok.. well.. to just now..
i've not shop'd for a verrry loong time.
so, just now bot quite some stuffs..
bot shirts, tee and tops la..
but not alot la.. bot from topshop, Zara and Mango
i LOVE theseshops. they offer the best clothes..
well.. clothes for me la..
then then... bot hary raya stuffs la..
mom ask me. kena force sia..
but then.. hu's complaining rite. wahaha..
then then... ya just bout that..
haha..
ok- sori if today's post is boring like hell.
im just feeling euphorically excited.
wahahah.. raya coming!
best sey!
ok- chio!
posted @ 7:22 PM
Saturday, November 22, 2003
shit.shit.shit
ok people.. new layout.
how? how? im being kinda paranoid with the new look.
but whatever it is.. i was bored of the previous one.
it gives me the "blaahhh" impression everytime i enter.
so, ya.. look at what my sleepless nights did.
worth it eh. alot of images i created.
and i mean alot.. ofcos ah.. everynite.. im a noctural creature.
ok- the events of the day..
went to town with mum and sis.
aim:find raya shoe. onli.
result:one raya shoe. one raya bag.
it took me 4 malls and bout 3 hours finding the perfect heels.
tough job mann.. never knew it'd be so hard for me.
i just realised how choooosy i am.
then i intended on not buying any bag this year.. cos cannot be bothered..
but then..... motha sound me to buy this reeeli nice guess small shoulder bag..
kecik.. very nice.. compact ahh..
dah sound.. ape lagi..
wooots!! amek ah. and its not like a typical thing of her offering me things..
such rare cases i loike~
ok- that was it.
maybe im heading to town again tomorrow.
ima town girl.
ewww... no.. that made me sound as tho' im some groupie..
ok- whatever.
chio!
posted @ 1:28 AM
Thursday, November 20, 2003
D.O.O.R.M.A.T
I'm not your doormat, your floormat
So don't wipe your feet on me
I'm not the only Garibaldi
There's more fish in the sea
I'm not your puppy, nor goldfish
So don't treat me like your pet
I'm not your butterfly, so don't try
To chase me with your net
I'm not your kneaded eraser
So don't you wear me down
I'm not your sledge, sledge hammer
I'm no tool, that you pound
I'm not your blacktop, for hopscotch
So don't jump all over me
I'm not the place where the dogs roam
At the bottom of the tree Don't you treat me like I have no feelings
Don't you treat me like that, I have feelings
Don't treat me like that
Don't you treat me like that
Don't treat me like that
Don't you treat me like that! I'm not your carefree, nor sugarless
Like the gum on your shoe,
I'm not the ring 'round your finger
Nor am I wrapped around you
I'm not your shoe string, your rope thing
So don't tie me in a knot
I'm not your asphalt, with oil spots
So don't use me as a parking lot
this for all the JERKS out there.
get a life.
posted @ 1:38 AM
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
:: Dill-Dolrums ::
Wednesday... what can i bitched about.
not much la today.
just went to break fast with them @ beach road, then headed to esplanade..
nice and very picturesque @ the top of the esplanade nye roof..
then, spotted a lot of people dating.. mann.. get a room!
then took a boatride all the way to Clarke Quay..
then, bla bla bla.. lots of waiting and walking and posing.
posing for the camera that is..
met sis @ tanah merah inter, picked me up.
fuck! her car stink'd heavily of cigarettes smell..
i hate it.
Big time!
bla bla bla...
in the end- i stayed up at night again.
what is wrong with me.
sleep bitch! sleep!
posted @ 3:43 AM
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
:: Ironic Reversal ::
Have you ever thought of something that you wanted
ever so badly to happen?
well, of course.. everyone does that. BUT..
have you ever after wishing so much that it happen,
the opposite of it happen?
as in.. you placed too high an expectation of that event, but it didnt happen..
nevertheless, it always occurs to me..
therefore, i've always tried avoiding myself to be excited for an event..
because i have this paranoia feeling that, when im excited..
there'll be something awful happening later..
like as if..
if im happy.. there must be a time that i have to cry..
a payback if u can say..
thats total bullshit rite?
but it had never failed my instincts..
so that certainly proves im bloody paranoid.
so what else is new..
posted @ 3:00 PM
Monday, November 17, 2003
:: Keeping Score ::
Doing: Mesmerizing the taste of my cheesecake
Hearing: It's My Life- No Doubt
Been reading: "Second Prize" -Chris Manby
Feeling: Upbeat
Dreaming: of whoever that guy that was in my dream... Faizal?
Dressed in: Striped Pyjama Pants and a shirt embedded with the word "Anti-Racist"
that was basically summarising the scenario of me..
just imagine myself typing and doing all those things..
the shirt belongs to my sista.. haha. she got it from Thailand.
really cool shirt. with a giant "Anti-Racist" written on it.
the shirt is really BIG for me.. so im like wearing it as a sweata.
damn big i tell ya'..
ok, so.. i told bout that strange dream i encountered during my unconsciousness?
haha... hana long-winded siaa..
got this dream la last nite.. that i met this Perfect-O guy..
god, he's the most perfect guy there is.. and his name was Faizal.
that was all i could remember.. and since i woke up from that dream..
it had been lingering in my mind..... whooo siaa the guyy..
i would like to meet one day..
mysterious..
he just vanished. and the strange thing is I left him.
which is not possible, coz i dont LEAVE a guy stranded just like that.
there must be a strange meaning to that whole dream fiasco last nite..
uhhhhh- weiiird..
BUT, i tell ya it CANT be naz's ex.
that's a bastard. he aint.
if ya noeeee what i meaaan.. haha.
Bla, Bla, Bla....
my motha went through the operation successfully..
thank god.
so, she's warded. and yah, i just came back from the hospital too.
god, i love hospitals.. i mean.. yaaa..
i wont love it if im the one being admitted, but being a visitor..
niiiice ahh. i loike!
esp. Singapore General Hospital and Changi GH.
haha.. and i noe alot of people thinks that way..
7 more days till the end of Ramadhan..
aww.. i've started fasting again..
wahhh.. later must pat back alooot sia.
damn. my last year's debt still on.. and its still keeping score..
i've got a total of 15 days to payback.
ahhhhhh....
ok- enough negativ talks for the day.
gotta go head for the toilet.. nature's call..
c yaaaaaaaaaaa....... muacks!
posted @ 7:31 PM
Sunday, November 16, 2003
:: what ::
im........... like shit.
hahhhhh. felt like that. shit.
total shit. literally ahh..
feel SO dreadful..
want to write a song.. but nothing rhymes with..
arggggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
ok- im tired.
bullshit tired.
i NeEd drugs..
not those kind.
get it.
posted @ 3:43 AM
Saturday, November 15, 2003
Be my bitch, and we'll all get along...
"You charming girl, you're Rose McGowan."
What sexy girl are you
brought to you by Quizilla
Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned..
the ever so famous phrase that i live up to.
ok- i did the sexy girl quiz.
no picture posted.
its disgusting.
and evidently not in the mood.
whats important is how im feeling the grudge of a dull Saturday.
on to my real life part.
am i destitute? not literally, but figuratively..
Some are born to destitution and some have destitution thrust
upon them. I'm not very sure which was the case for me.
i think i had both.
im a butterfly, socially speaking.
I'm homeless but i'm careful with whom i mix.
i dont ever want to let myself down.
Im different.
im not like those other tramps.
No.
* figuratively. im not homeless. its Literature time.
and with querulous, quivering hand i seem to be typing..
last nite- i watched the "tale of two sisters"
fucking slowww...
i was waiting for the ghost-
watch'd it with my sista around 3 in the morning.
both imsomniac. everynite movie marathon.
yea- its a tatty tartan cylinder of hopeless trys of sleep.
but finally, i ease back and down. i lower my sorry body into the embrace
of the pillows and bed that was awaiting me for ages.
I am much more comfortable prone.
I close my sluggish eyes and my eyelids perform those
sunny kaleidoscopes we all know and love.
Splash and streak of ocular purple, yellow, orang, amber and black.
I wiggle and squirm to settle.
My mind finally rolls at rest.
My feet are terribly grateful and my dear old belly opts for patience.
hunger subsides. no i didnt. it screamed for my attention.
After so long, it can wait its turn.
This is nice.
I made the most out if it.
this may seem to be a fragment from some mattering-to novels.
but believe me.. this how it feels to be me.
wanna try?
the cup is passed.
posted @ 4:44 PM
Friday, November 14, 2003
Your Heart is Black
What Color is Your Heart?
brought to you by Quizilla
waahh seyy..
muahaha. ok whatever. cannot be bothered actually to do quiz bout love.
but 'Some one' insisted that i did.
uh- i dont need love rite now.
im good.
ok.. i was out the entire day..
from Jurong to IKEA to Spotlight-
basically, was shopping for stuffs for my room and for me.
i bot a whole lot of attractive junks..
its just gonna help me fill up my holiday uhhh-
canot stand the boredommm..
so i bot candless.. and these reeeli cute and gorgeous candle holderss..
whoaaa- i canot stand looking at colourful stuffss.
then bot some frame la.. some VERY odd framess..
for me to decorate-
my pastime.. got alot of ideas ready.. muahaha
yaa.. bot pillows la.. bot CD rack la..
i reeeeli need to start cleaning up the rooom.
fucking messy uhhh-
messy gal sia.. like this cannot make a good wife..
wuiishh..~
ya-basically tu jee..
so c ya.
posted @ 10:37 PM
Thursday, November 13, 2003
:: Q.U.I.Z time.. its time like this i reeally feel myself..::
Which [Charlie's Angels] characters are you?
Which [Movie Genres] are you?
What [Cakes] are you?
Which [5 Elements] are you?
Which [Smallville] Characters are you?
Wahhh seyyy.. lana babeh..
hmmm.. " You care alot for others but seldom spare a thought for yourself".. noe i feel that way..
im tooo much concern for others, until one day they'll step on me. damn..
Are You Naughty or Nice?
What's your usual [mood]?
Do you need a boy/girl friend now?
Is the glass half full or half empty?
Which [Diamond Shapes] are you?
posted @ 1:56 PM
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
okay.. im feelin' all lovey-dovey.
muaha.. yes. untypical.
so, i guess thats why Sade-By your side is playing here
yeah.. but i could tell ya, it wont last that long.
ok-gotta go flush myself down the toilet bowl.
thats a cliche btw.
posted @ 9:23 PM
hmmm.. since olmost everrybody's doing that bear quiz:
here i amm..
let's see what i am.
Thug Bear
Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
muahahaha... okay, so the quiz went kinda pathetic.
coz some of the choices i AINT understand!
so, i just took whatever choice i think i canmostly relate to and UNDERSTAND!
talk abouut thuggin'.. muahaha
"a hardcore gangsta"?? muahahaha.. not me. i aint no crook.
but i do love my bitches and hoes.
and my posse.. urhh, i dont think i HAF a gun.
and i could relate to a raver bear.. who loves ta' partyy~!!
anger management class?
whoa- im not that bad.
posted @ 1:54 PM
Tuesday, November 11, 2003
Reality Check:
+ suffering from sore eye.. my left eye look'd as if i've been punch'd
+ went to the doctor... got a whole bunch of pills and some ointment for the eye
+ went to my father's pri. sch... help'd out his class sell some shits.
Wow.. talk about meeting Primary-6 Bitches.
+ lost 20 bucks on my home. DAMN!
+ Bad Hair Day! split ends invaded!
awrgh...anything good?? NO.
not yet at least...
whats new i guess. last nite i didnt sleep again.
this imsomnia is getting bad. affecting my health. thats why im sick~
arghh! got eye bags!.. i hate that! got to buy that powder fo' the eye.
aiite- enuff complainin'..
let me see what imma do today- for the rest of the day la..
take my medicine.. gerenti later SLEEP. FinallY!!
i miss my dreams and nightmares..
i miss the feeling of feeling satisfied in the morning..
there's just already too many people insisting that i sleep..
but i cant!!
i just cant!! eurgh..~
see.. im getting all cranky..
its cranky-hanna.~!
posted @ 1:43 PM
Monday, November 10, 2003
November Birthdays:
8th Nov= Shafiq
9th Nov= Shahrul, My uncle
10th Nov= Fauzi
11th Nov= my another Uncle
19th Nov= Shikyn
28th Nov= My fatha
heh.. i actualli fergot their birthdays or either that i JUST found out.
i don't keep track la.. sorie la.
waaah.. so many people were born on the mth of November..
waaahhh.. any more people i noe?
oh yep. i added and edited again-and-again my blog.
add wishlist la, add pictures la.. alah.. guess im bored like hell.
BUT then... the pictures look like shit urh.
coz i make it smaller then crop la.. then biler kecikkan..
the face seme cram'd into the space. so..
Some faces will luk like shit.
sorri to the peeps in therre...
ok, back to ME. ME.
so, whats been going on wif me today urh?
well.. went to school to send the booklist.
i feel stupid. got up in the Morning [11am] JUST to send a booklist to school..
and i was in school for onli like waaat?.. 3 minutes??
and i came ALL the way.. bath'd and all.. urghh..
but i tried making the situation betta.. so i went shopping all by myself..
no money actualli.. just using my last months allowance tt i saved..
puasa wat.. wat to spend on..
so.. check out wat i bot EARLY in the morning! (P.S: lucky me, the shops were open'd)
+ tank top from This fashion
+ f.r.i.e.n.d.s vcd; Vol 18 and 54
+ Famous Amos cookies: Butterscotch Pecan
+ Mcdonald's Fillet o' Fish
erh.. not fasting urh..
that time of the month....
then reach'd home bout 12 plus..
took 3 home, and saw Dian with ainul..
emmm... no comments....
she was smilin'.. hah! thats a first..
gez tts bcoz she aint got any friends anymore?
ahh i c..
so, the rest of the day was spent on f.r.i.e.n.d.s and sleeping..
and oh ya.. net. duh-
oh yeps.. Fauzi call'd @ nite.. then talk2 la.
so thats it la.
pathetic kan..
im still sick la!
eurghhh~
posted @ 12:33 PM
Sunday, November 09, 2003
here i go again...
having endless sleeping problems..
the whole nite i stay'd inside MSN..
chatted with 'em.. wow.
longest MSN chat evarr..
lalalalala... Whoa!
ok, later im going ta haf to take exam @ Bedok.
religious class ar .. exam.. damn.. no hols for me..
cannot cabut the class anymore..
then afternoon, im going to break fast pat Eden Hotel in
Johor Bahru.. Whoa~
cool aye'? but the sad thing is.. i aint fasting. hah.
but takpelah.. :D join skalik..
im still sick as ever.. maybe coz i lack of sleep urh..
gotta do something bout this imsomnia.
damn. its KIlling Me!!!
posted @ 1:04 PM
Saturday, November 08, 2003
arggggghh.. im SICK!
y.e.s, S.I.C.K..
so sick i can barely stand.
but i can still blog tho'.. hahh
the day been pretty boring for me.
sick and lonely... fuuh...BULLSHIT man!
arghh, damn..
now ure getting the cranky-hanna.
So, watcha think i been doing the whole day.
no one's home.
im sick.
im bored.
im REALLY pathetic.
so much in distress...
need ya' ask some more!
ok well, wat i did to supress my anger+boredom
is watching a whole lot of VCDs..
yeah, yesterday bot a lot at JOhor..
imma criminal.. well, whatever.
so, watch and watch... till i fell asleep.
then i woke up and thats where u get the cranky-hanna!
yesterday was a ton of bullshit against me.
i went to school to find out wat class im going to be in for
the next 2 years of ny secondary school live.
i be in 3e5.! yes..
well, i was kinda expecting to be in 3e3..
but WHOA...no.
i wasnt the onli one shock'd..
but hey, its all coz of maths.. duh.
so, im not going to complain.. or appeal.. or whatever..
just gonna make sure i don get distracted in my studies.
i am GOING to BANISH...
1. relationships with total JERKS, they'll just make me sober
2. going out too much..
3. hangin' on the phone with useless asses..
4. hours on ends on the net.. tough, tough..
5. and lastly... concentrate in the class.. thats gonna be major
coz 3e5 is full of loudmouths asses..
its a class full of MALAYS..
kinda gerek but... u noe, u noe...
well, who care.. im happy i've gotten ART.
yehoo.. so, who cares rite if i dont get 3e3..
like nadiah!.. im just gonna bring up my ass !
yeah! she so lucky mahh.. got tuition all..
bragging bitch!
bt she till my fren.. what are frens for?
hah.
ok, no more talk of shits.
im not fasting anyway.
so, gonna haf some drink.
kekekeke.
posted @ 4:14 PM
Thursday, November 06, 2003
I.N.S.O.M.N.I.A.C
wow, ok i'm freaking out.
i haf NOT slept since last nite.
well, i tot i'd stay up TILL sahur..
then i tried going back to sleep, but i wasn't sleepy AT ALL
so, i read a book... nah, still awake.
so, i watch'd friends... nah, still open'd eyes, but got tired.
then..... in the morning.. i slept. i FINALLY slept.
but then i was woken up by momma at 11.
damnit. so, if i were to count...
i only slept for 3 hours.
THREE....
and i woke up REALLY cranky and all grumpy..
hmmmm....
anyone has got sleeping pills for me?
im serious.... erghhh
posted @ 1:14 PM
Wednesday, November 05, 2003
Mellow-dramatic... devils still around..
Its bulan puasa, ramadhan...
and i can still see 'setan' berkeliaran.
ape ni. its suppose to be a GOOD month to do ibadah and all.
and WOW.. not just is this coming from me, im becuming piss'd
looking at all the sights.
especially at geylang.. what the hell is this people?!
emmm.. ok.
hahhaaaa...
pe jee hana.
posted @ 2:48 PM
Love's Still Alright
" In the game of love there's bitter and its sweet
So if the one I loved never gave me love in return,
love's still alright with me
Who's supposed to take good care of ME
It's ME, MYSELF, MY HEART and I
never worry cause I know just who I am..
You live and learn to be the same without that man.... "
Don't beat youself up to Lost Affections.
posted @ 1:51 AM
Monday, November 03, 2003
" Its my shot. You'll get your turn later!"
Wasn't I something else!
Why is it that adolescent boys talk so very much crap?
I was certainly sticky with the blemish of the banal.
I mean, I was bad but by no means unusual.
Well, come now- I was young. i AM young. I beg to plead callow immaturity.
erk.
ok, i don't think anyone would understand my gibberish nonsense.
well, no one would fucking care anyway.
sooo... there you go..
what happen'd on a freeeking Tuesday.
Wow.. of all the excitement of the holidays!
posted @ 1:47 AM
Sunday, November 02, 2003
:: Sunday ::
Already the day is humming. Hum Hum, it goes.
It's a strangely irritating sound peculiar to Sundays.
Even in my etiolated unsocial state Sundays horrify me.
Sundays strike their dull terror into my soul.
Sundays, those Sundays, they make me sweat and gibber with horror.
Much that is engaging about Sundays- rest, ease, contemplation and comfort
These are restricted pleasure.
Sundays! Only vicars, widows and crickets like 'em.
I've never met anyone who like Sundays.
okay, maybe i have once.
but, whatever.
its just me sitting, blabbering about my hungry being
on a fucking boring Sunday.
posted @ 1:32 PM
Saturday, November 01, 2003
:: Not Much ::
it saturday.
a very short day. woke up really late today. dunno why..
been pretty tired stayin' up very late last nite~
im an imsomniac person. havin' trouble sleeping.
ok, so.. just now went to White Sand with naz,
to go develop 'yana bday' fotoss..
ALOT sia.. like really ALOT.. about 76 pix in total..
then we took the express service.. it totalled up to 'bout $40
WOW rite~ and yahh.. alot of 'interrresting' pictures..
ok, so thats bout it la.
told ya' today was boring.
Saturday is too free and lagi2 w/o anything to do.
whatever.
posted @ 8:20 PM